worst school grades ever. i've never tried failing all of midterms for each of my classes at the same time. writing class 53.5/100. biology 82.5/141. biochem 48.5/100. what the hell... this is breaking my heart and soon to my parents

Jimmy Huang 12:39 am
now you sign on
where you been
Kevin Tan 12:39 am
fuck
with this girl

i want to get my ears pierced.. what to do? what to do? i don't think it looks good on me though.. what if my parents find out.. i won't wear earrings around them until they bust me out of course, but i'm hardly home, how would they find out.. hah

seriously need to meet more people.. being here alone every weekend is not gonna cut it. heading to the 5th week of school, and i have yet met anyone like you guys or someone who can be a good friend.

have a feeling i will fail every course this quarter. everyone seem so intelligent in my classes. even though i study so much, i wont be able to memorize everything. im just not at their level, maybe i don't belong to this college. i'm not as smart as everyone what thinks.. i don't want to drop out, it'd be the biggest disappointment to my parents, i'd rather shoot myself. i better crank it up a notch and work extra hard, cause the first 2 weeks, i didn't organize my time well enough for each class. man this is sad... homesick, and not doing well in school

ever regret what you just ate? it doesn't happen to me very often and i don't remember the last time i regret putting something in my mouth. but i just did. i bought a #1 whopper value meal from burger king. i super regret it. now i gotta so much more pull ups to compensate it. but i don't have the freaken time, sigh, midterm friday and midterm next monday...

i meant lap pulldowns and chest press machines

totally GTL'd yesterday with the MVP.
Gamed, Tug'o war, Liquor with McDonalds, Vodka, and Procrastination.. till 6:30am. only 3-4 hours of sleep, shitload of hw. 1 essay 2 midterms next week.. what to do!

am i getting more involved now? you guys know how i normally don't cuss and i get annoyed when someone says it a lot around me. once in a while is fine. but my roomies and their friends, now my friends always say 'diu nay', 'pok guy', 'diu nay lo may', lun' this and 'lun' that after every sentence they say. i sometimes throw in a few of those when i have a convo with them so i feel like i'm part of them. i feel immature and strange when i say it. iono if i'll be a rude bastard when i get back, cussing all the time. hopefully not cause that's just not me. sigh..